thousands of stars

life moves fast. sometimes you get so wrapped up in one thing, and don't know how you got to another. you think you've got everything figured out and then it all collides at once, and you wonder how you lost control.

there's this feeling though.

it's the feeling of such peace in a fast paced world. sometimes it's when you're headed home with all four windows down going 70 mph down the highway and the music in the background. or when you climb out the window and sit on the roof and look at the thousands of stars. it's that time of realization that you're so small in this world, but it's comforting to feel, to be able to stop time, stop the action of the world and simply think. it's when you feel like god is so real and so active, when you've lost sight of his control and you find it again like it's christmas morning.

i remember at a house i used to live in there was this red shed and i used to spend time with god there. i'd climb up it and just let time pass, looking at who i was and what i was doing with my life. i looked at the decisions i made and reflected on how i could be better. i felt the comfort of god that i need so desperately so many times there.

sometimes i neglect the feeling of god in my life, something that seems easy but in the end is a lot harder to hold all the time. time after time, he proves to be faithful, to guide me down a road to learn and try harder the next time i fall.

embrace the comfort of god.

commit everything

"commit everything you do to the lord. trust him, and he will help you. he will make your innocence as clear as the dawn, and the justice of your cause will shine like the noonday sun." psalm 37:5-6

i can't even really describe the way that i feel in life, so at peace, so happy with where i am and the things i'm doing. but along with that feeling, i give all the credit to god. i read this verse today, and i believe it now so much more than ever. if you commit everything in your life to god, he will take care of you. that's your relationship, your friendships, your academics, your work, your troubles, your sins. this feeling of peace encourages me every day. this year i think i've started to work on my prayer life more than ever, and it's been amazing to connect to god that way. i don't know what you need to work on, but let god be a part of it. so many times we view god as the judge, the one who will scorn us for the things we don't do exactly right, but he wants to be so actively involved in our lives. commit everything to god and he will help you.

christmas exhilaration

christmas 1996.

it was possibly the most anticipated present of my christmas career. it didn't have anything to with the ninja turtles and power rangers. it wasn't a child's toy or something i would forget about the next week. in fact thirteen years later, it's here in my dorm room. countless hours spent being entertained by this very gift.
this business was not messing around. it was the new high tech deal to hit the streets. i'm talking about the nintendo 64.

why don't we have exhilaration for god?
why don't our hearts race to worship our god?
why do we get so excited about physical things
so much more than eternal things?

i want to have that anxious six year old feeling
for my god that i did for a game system that year.

how do i do it?

yesterday we had a night worship service and our song leader was involved, but i loved it so much, that he wanted to sing to god until our time was up, and that he sweat for god, even in worship.

do you sweat for god?

i think we have to decide to focus our life, our relationships, our friendships toward god. it's so amazing to let god have the reins of our lives.

have christian exhilaration just like i had my six year old christmas exhilaration.